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Yo
2 days away from the test and I've got this to say..
I was talking to Ahana juss 2 days ago and I was pissed off.. U see : Bored + Pissed = Pissed Off
Anyway, she managed to get everything out from me and here's all the stuff.. u .. might wanna read
So let's start from the day Prateek went back early.. I convinced myself that it was work n then forgot bout it but Mom told me he'd been there for the past few days n .. that duude was offerin' Prateek a lotta $$ Soo.. I was VERY PISSED because that's the last thing I expected him to do.. Well, maybe he's juss changin with time. Like me.. Shortly after that, it's result time for IP n when I saw my rank, I was puzzled.. Then I convinced myself that maybe a lotta smart people had given the paper. Then when I found out that even the biggest losers in our IMS batch had got a rank of 600 odd, I DEFINITELY knew something was SERIOUSLY WRONG with my frikkin rank. (I got 2691) which seems impossible now. I checked but there's no frikkin way to get it re-checked or.. anything. Hopefully, I won't
go into that weird "SIKH" univ.. They REALLY make me "sikh" XD (Hmmm, that joke's too old now =| ) Anyway, one day later it was Moolie's b'day and since I was grounded at home coz I told Dad I'd study after 3 days of enjoyment (n I didn't), he got cheesed off.. BADLY ! Anyway, I somehow managed to write a song about Moolie and her friends and her b'day along with a random pic. of her edited in Photoshop. It wasn't much but, couldn't do anything else =| And.... then after that things at home are screwed up as usual..
They never really are good =| Anyway, then we come to the romantic side.. which, is in despair as usual. I've somehow grown strong enough to repress (m not sure if that's the right word ..!) any feelings for Raina. Which makes me single and happy and gay (XD).. Random women adding me from IDK where .. Though I can at least appreciate the fact that some women still find me attractive but duude, they're scary ! =P Soo, for a person of astronomical characteristics like me, my current romantic situation pretty much sucks ASS ! Hence, I'm usually depressed. I know those 2 things have nothing in common and I shouldn't even try to make a connection but, this is me we're talkin bout.. I'm nothing like the normal guy. =| K.. u know what ??Honestly, I make tharki comments bout women for laughs
If I was ever that tharki in person, I'm sure I would have... well, IDK.. been with random-ass women juss for "the fun of it" =| Sooo, this is BASICALLY one problem which is magnifying all other problems of my life and creating shit. U might say other people who stay single don't have shit but... u know what ?? I will give u reality. 7/10 of every person whose single on this Earth right now wishes he/she wasn't single... They'll might have their own different reasons for it. I do too.. Mine is survival. I can't LIVE like this... It's juss... weird.. Then again, when I wasn't in love with anyone else, I hadn't been bitten by that "love bug" And.. even though it was only 3 months, something as beautiful as love can never be forgotten by anyone. No matter at what age they were..
The only happiness I get these days is by u 2 or SouthPark or Prateek or a few shows or TV.. Because, for those few mins, I lose a sense of reality and enjoy the wonders of being in that situation and laughing like there's sun shining outside and the birds are singing.... Then when I saw my CBS result and when I couldn't find my name, I was juss..... devastated.. I looked pretty normal from the outside but ... I was.. crushed from within. It was exactly the same feeling I had when I had to "read about my breakup with Raina" =| It hurt really bad and I cried yest. night.. Of course, it wasn't the end.. I knew that but... I had done a really good paper and I wanted to be in that 800. But, I couldn't.. :(( Well, then I saw one of Moolie's quotes... and that's why I told her I loved herThe quote was "When things go wrong, don't go with them." ..... Guess it made me feel better a bit.. Then I talked it out with bhai bout 2 hours ago. He made me feel better about it too .. I can only hope now that I'll clear that paper on 21st. It's my last shot at a good college.. Then I have these usual pangs of hurt and anger when I see those racers on TV.. U know why.. Sooo... life's juss going through another hard phase and.. it's getting more and more difficult to live through em..
I guess that's it....
Hmmm..
Let's get on to something more interesting .. !!
Phone Sex !! XD
I discovered it a few days ago... No wait, I haven't DONE phone sex , coz.. I repeat : It's THEE DUMBEST THING I'VE EVER HEARD !!!!
Ahem
Anyway,juss another random day.. random girl meets my profile. I add her up for random reasons.. We talk random things.. Random happenings, yaa know
XD
K k .. Soo, she will be referred to as "Tanya" .. well, coz that's her name .. (DUMBASS) She lives ... somewhere (I don't remember) Anyway, weird thing is she's VERY FRANK. After 5 mins. of talking, she admits I'm (I quote) "totally cute" and when I was about to go, she gave me her no. =|
K firstly, the rule STATES that u CANNOT call the person of the opposite sex any adjectives complimenting/deciminating (I think that's a word..!! Aah, screw U !!) the other person for whatever reason
Secondly, the rule STATES that u CANNOT give your , your best friends or your closest relatives mobile number or any sort even if the opposite sex does/does not intend to receive it
(All hail : the rule)
Soo.. since she violated both rules of random chatting ....... damn, I couldn't help save her no. XD
Anyway, long story short. She's juss some random girl living in Bangalore who thinks I'm cute.. THANK GOD I DIDN'T GO FOR SYMBI !
Soo.. I sms'ed her (DAMN IT !!) and.. she sends this weird forward which was too explicit for women to read (coz it was a "women's joke")
Thirdly, the rule STATES that u CANNOT send random people adult/mature texts from their random friends containing content which the other person might find explicit or (damn... there were so many words on those porn sites) XD
Soo.. she went on about her ex.. Which brings us to the most important and exciting part of this entire blog post (yes, my life sucks) (I thought u realized that by now =P )
PHONE SEX !!
I quote : "When u love someone and cannot be in a "physical relationship" with them, u do phone-sex"
I swear to God, if she was in front of me I would have given her ONE TIGHT SLAP !!! Dumbass.. Yes, she's a virgin .. n then it was awkward
(DAMN IT!)
VERY AWKWARD !!!
Soo, she used to do phone sex with her ex.. I have no clue what "they said" and had no intentions of knowing either so I closed the topic "with a click" XD Then, she told me later on how her ex was already with some other gal and he was juss using her for... phone sex ! Yes, she was very hurt and depressed and cried... I'm not really sure whose idea was it to start doing that.. See, it's time like these WHICH REALLY PISS ME OFF !! I mean, GOD DAMN IT ! THAT SON OF A BITCH ALREADY HAD ONE GAL AND HE WAS HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH ANOTHER GAL AND HE WAS ONLY 15 !! U BUTT-HOLE !! IT'S ASSHOLE GUYS LIKE YOU WHO MAKE IT HARDER FOR GUYS LIKE ME !!! U SON OF A BITCH !! GO FUCK SATAN ! (Satan's gay.. did u know that ??) But, she's a nice gal.. I'll probably delete her after 21st juss like the others.. It's sometimes fun talking to random women like that
Of course I won't keep her.. Duude, I've already sent her 12 frikkin STD sms'es
SUE ME !!
*Yawns*
Oh man.. I'm addicted to SouthPark ! I even dream about it :D It's frikkin weird !!
Best part is.. Kenny doesn't die anymore xD
....
Seriously.. Phone Sex ??!!
U HAVE TO BE KIDDING ME !!!
Although the thought of it is.... DUMBASS, I'd suggest people don't try it.
Why ??
....
COZ IT'S A DUMBASS THING, THAT'S WHY !!!
Anyway..
*Yawns*
I'm really nervous bout this paper after CBS. I sometimes can't get my head together these days... I told her I've moved on but.. it isn't that easy.. sometimes I wish I never could n sometimes.. I wish I never had...
But.. it's ...
Crap
...
Crap
Yeaah.. I guess that'll help
U know.. I think about her sometimes... Lying back in bed and wondering if I had juss kept my mouth shut and listened to my friends.. They WERE right. U can't argue that .. but.. I guess love is.. "love" .. It's soo special u wouldn't know what it is unless u've felt it.. We've all felt love once our teenage lives, right ?? :) Whether it was right or wrong, we didn't care.. In our eyes, our lover was our everything. And saying those 3 magical words never had that much power until that moment... when u look into their eyes.
........
One of many things that I'll regret but, I've learnt my lessons. There is NO TURNING BACK on life..
There IS NO reverse gear .. ...
Juss ...
Forward
It's now or never
Juss 2 days more
Cyaa guys ^^
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