Mood : Volatile

Listening to : -

Reading : -
Watching : Prison Break
Playing : -

You know.. every person has their own way of showing someone how much they love them. They make their own choices and they don't regret them. When that person dies, your heart dies too. Ironically, it doesn't.. It juss makes you love that person even more.. When the one woman I loved as much said to me what no man ever wants to hear, your heart dies too. You somehow feel that everything was vain.. foolish .. it wasn't of any use. Then one day, you realize something.. That this is not how it ends. There are people in this world who love you for who you really are, not for who you want to be.. There are people who sometimes don't confess that love, they take it for granted. Maybe today was such a lesson. Maybe I was the one who took everything for granted. Yet, no one believes it. It's true.. Nobody expects someone to believe this. So is this love ?? The very thing that we fight for, the very thing that makes our heart jump for joy and leave us cold the very next moment ?? It's the decisions we make, at the end of the day, that really make the difference.. That one small ray of light that makes your heart believe that it truly is.... love.

:)

Conflict Of Interests

Mood : Indifferent

Listening to : GCI Francis' - I Hate (version 0.11) XD

Reading : SS - The Windmill Of The Gods
Watching : -
Playing : -

So I've got new shit this time =D

On a more serious note ..

Things have gone from bad to juss ... horrible :\ Don't even feel like staying at home these days. It's like any word that comes out of my mouth, they find it annoying. I don't blame em. They don't know who they're dealing against. Duude, you wanna learn to keep grudges, you come to me !!

Anyway, I'm pretty much buried in books, the net (GK + Facebook) and trying to find any games.

Seriously, I don't have any decent game left on my PC ! I only have the latest version of Tiger Woods n I got that TrackMania shit. Unfortunately, without a graphics card, the games are pretty much committing suicide every time I play em XD (errr... they ... shut down......) (...... suicide ......)

BLAARGH !

Hmmmm, this sucks

1) I'm in deep shit

2) I'm single

3) I got only 10 friends to discuss this with

4) I keep getting .... emotional sometimes when people talk shit about me.. guess I take em too seriously

5) I can't write poems anymore

6) I .... I'm confused about someone

So my visitor count is 101.

I thank Sam n Shruti =P

Went to school on Wednesday ... yesterday ... Err, got pretty nostialgic. Juss.. realized at that moment how much I'm gonna miss my school ... For all the good and bad reasons.... But, juss .... too many memories ...

Then I also realized how useless I've turned my life into juss because of the "Pursuit For Love". :\

I'd rather not wanna talk about it..

Sometimes, u can't be yourself in front of some people.. They're different .. and ... u have to put up a show sometimes to let them see what you really want them to see. It's sad but ... it's true

IDK

I'm messed up. I.... need some time

Your Tharki Next Door Boy :

Aavis

Some New Ideas ... !

Mood : Yawning

Listening to : -

Reading : The Bro Code - Barney Stinson
Watching :  Jeff Dunham and Achkmed (FUNNIEST SHIT EVER !!! :D )
Playing : Half-Life 2  (Finished it !! :P )

I liked the idea of associating every post with a related/humourous photo !  I updated the older posts with the same and I'm gonna keep up with this as much as I can... well, I can't do that with every post :P (no the idea WAS NOT inspired by the pics. I uploaded earlier !!! XD )  I juss thought the blog would look more .. lively !  All text = Dull Jack  Text + Pics = .... errr ... an audience ?! =P

*Yawns*

I'm used to staying up late now..  It's become a (bad) habit :|  But, I like it.  I play games, listen to music (sometimes study :P ) with absolute peace and quiet !  Oh n do this as well !  

So I remember a friend told me about this Jeff Dunham and "Achkmed" .. !!  LOl !! LOl !! LOL !!!! XD  This guy is HILARIOUS !!!  He's won the best ventroliquist award for 2 years and has double platinum DVDs !!  He's a hit !  He's even better than Russel Peters =D  I damn recommend you check him out.  All the videos on YouTube are scattered.  Juss go to his website : http://www.jeffdunham.com/ It'll take a while to load but it's DEFINITELY worth it !  It's juss one of many ways that I've found to vent out my anger :)  

So I went jogging today ... again !  I know, it's unbelievable how can you can convince your brain to get up and run =P  Anyway, same old story.  The people over there give me looks .. !  As if I don't belong in the sacred cult of "Getting Ur Ass Out Of Bed At 6 In The Morning For A Jog" ....  Sacred club man .. !!  XD  

*Yawns*

Half-Life 2 sucked u know .. !!  :P  Seriously, no monster to fight in the end..  Juss the boring good v/s evil dialouge exchanges n a lil bit of action ..!!  That's it !  I seriously think they screwed up the ending.  They could have done a lot better =(

Well, that the ends the tryst of games that my PC could support.  Will switch back to Counter-Strike from today .. I mean, tomorrow :P

Hmmmmm..

Got a test tom.  Inspite of my persistent convincing (which turned out to be valiant), Dad's taking an off tom. to drop me of for the test.  It's in CP.  Few km away from where I usually go n give the test.  Soo, Mom's coming all along as well n .. well, they'll be going shopping.. (SCREWED !! XD) LOL 

*BIG Yawn*

Duude.. 1:30

I'd better go

Oh n btw... I have no clue what m going to say to her tomorrow.  I'm praying to God that I hope I don't have to... encounter the .. err .. situation :|  

Well .. it's for the best !!  

It's a show indeed =D

Cyaa ^^

Mood : Active

Listening to : Switchfoot - We Are One Tonight

Reading : -
Watching :  South Park =D
Playing : Half-Life 2  (Yeaah !!)

Again, I apologize for yesterday :P

LOl !

Anyway, a few updates..

So I woke up at 7 yesterday and "ACTUAAAAAALLY" went out to jog ..!  It was ... fun !  I did 3 rounds power walking, then jogged the entire path again, took a 5 minute break and then walked 2 more rounds.  All in 30 mins. !! (the length of the track was somewhere like 250m-300m) If I keep this up, I'm sure things would get more pleasant... aka ... I'LL LOSE WEIGHT !! XD  Well, I'm only 75 and I'm 5'11 , soo.. it's not so bad.  I was also looking around for any places/things that might help in building upper body strength (Punjabi bole toh.. mere dole-shole !!!! XD XD ) Couldn't find anything :\  Hmmmm, dekhte hain.. Should find something somewhere..

Boring day today..  Did mainly GK, slept and participated in this gaming tournament !!  Yeah .. reminded me of the old days :)  I guess the only difference was that this time I was paying more attention to the Wii and the top scorer.  But, I eventually did break his record by a good margin ! :D  ... and I'm really happy.  You know.. there's some... gaming bug in me that juss won't go.  I was born to do this.... I know that.  But, unfortuantely, no one else does and... they wouldn't really give a damn anyway.  Let's see if I win the prize again :)  It's a Nintendo Wii.  If I do win it, it'll be the 4th gaming console in my room !! :P  I barely play games these days...

Speaking of games..

HALF-LIFE 2 !!!

Most todd game ......... that my PC can support XD
Yeahh, a 76 wouldn't really give me a graphics card yaa know :(

Let's see.. I've at least managed to shorten the time gap for my new phone !

Soo, I was playing Half-Life 2 and I was trying to kill these huge robots when I heard a "Bong" . It was the alert for my Yahoo Messenger whenever somebody IMs me.  I was puzzled.. I had set my status to invisible.. Well, minimized it and saw it was .... my ex.

:|

I was in two-minds.. Whether I talk to her or not.  But, I care about her , soo.. I replied back.  There were times when I felt like switching back to the game but.. I was already dead by then :P

We juss talked about random things... How to deal with that new crush.  Apparently, she's still in her old habits of reading "X" and interpreting "Y" XD .. Well, can't blame her.  Sometimes I do talk vaguely but... Aahh, forget it

Sooo, it was juss a short convo..  She left about a few minutes back.  I guess school ki holidays start ho gayi hongi..  No wonder she's up late again !  Hmmmm, wanted to talk to her about school and how she's been doing. Aaah.. let's see

Well, as u can see by my depressed tone, Prateek didn't come :( :( :(
I hate my Mom even more than how much I did earlier.  I don't know if that's possible but... Apparently, she gave me the most stupidest of all excuses.. "Prateek ka toh college pakka ho gaya hai.  U still have a few exams left. Give them properly and then you can have "masti" " .. I was like," BULL SHIT !  I won't fail in my exam if he comes over for one day !! Bloody it's not like they're tom. !  They're around 3 weeks away !!!!"  Hence, I was VERY angry all day. Barely studied except for GK n Maths.  And yes.. I will be angry at her till the 7th of June.  You wanna learn how to keep grudges, u talk to me ..!!  Bloody, I can be angry at anyone who pisses me off.. And, mom did that VERY badly .... :\

Sooo, I did what I could.  Juss studied n slept.  Nothing much.  I also got a VERY horrible headache ... in my head 

=P

Ahhem !

Well, what happened was that I was doing some Maths in the morning after Mom told me Prateek wouldn't be coming and since I was fuming at that time (thankfully, I didn't punch any walls or anything ! ) I decided to vent it all out on Maths.  Unfortunately, quite the contrary happened..  I didn't realize I was racking my brain too hard on the calculations and I was doing all the questions so quickly that .... I lost sense for a few seconds and then.. it hit me.  Very sharply... this.... unimagineably sharp pain in the side of my head.... like someone stabbed me .. !  God, it was horrible.  An aspirin didn't work, soo.. I fell asleep somehow for around an hour.  Mom woke me up, shaking me from side to side !  I felt very ... drowsy at that time.  I finally got perfect sense half an hour later... mainly coz my stomach had more rats than the Yamuna (XD) .  The rest of the day I felt sorta lethargic, soo.. I decided I'd so something less stressing like GK.  Anyway, I feel ... scared now :\  Seriously...  I wonder if this thing is starting to go beyond my own control.  I've been debating whether to tell Dad or not but... this is certainly NOT the time.  I've got exams and GDs + PIs coming up.  If I get hospitalized for this, I can't waste any of that time doin' nothing.  Let's see......

My grandmother gave me a big silver coin of Ganeshji today.. Yeah, she's very religious. Me .. I'm religious to the extent that I believe in God and that HE/SHE DOES have the power to change things :)  Said I should keep it near me from now on.. 

Err.. I wrote this stupid poem today.  IDK how I even wrote it...  I was juss listening to songs in my break and... things started to form n.. this .. piece of crap came out ... !  Check it out : http://aavis.deviantart.com/art/You-re-My-Everything-123630378

I hope if this keeps up I can improve my poetry again :)  Honestly, I still have NO IDEA how it came out.  I only write poems when I ... love someone or have feelings for em.  

Hmmm.. I wonder what's going on...

Anyway, I need to prepare "Note To Mansi" and then catch some Zs

Cyaa ^^

It Happened ... ! AGAIN !

Mood : Sleepy

Listening to : Blue - Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest 

Word
Reading : The Bro Code - Barney Stinson
Watching :  Megan Fox ... !!! =P~ 
Playing : Half-Life 2  (Yeaah !!)

Yeahh, it happened... again...  !  It wasn't that exciting this time.  Juss a "Yeaahh.. Whatever" reaction.  Damn, I'm getting carried away XD

Soo this girl in IMS..  Tells me has a crush on me for a while and since these classes are about to end, she decided she'd .. tell me.  I was completely taken aback at first.  Maybe you'd feel the same because :

1) I didn't know her ... !

2) I barely talk to her :P  Our conversation is restricted to "HI" & "Hello" . And I go like, "*Nods*  Sup ??"

3) Duude.. she's ... healthy ..! .. and I don't mean literally :P :P

Anyway, told Sam about this.  I don't know what happened in between but.. we ended up .. "fighting" .. again.  :\ 

IDK WHY MAN !!
*Sigh*

I got a bit pissed at her and then I had to go do some shopping.  For once, I liked it !  Cool breeze, hot women , black-currant smoothie, my best friend by my side... WHAT ELSE DO YAA NEED ?! :D

Megan Fox 

XD

She's hot !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

VERY hot !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

VERY VERY HOT !

XD

I think u get the idea !! :P

Anyway, got some stuff and went back home..  Crashed into my old art teacher too !  LOl, it was weird :P

So I had a test today at IMS

Went faaad =D (todd!! Awesome !!)  Surprisingly, it was pretty easy !  Finished what I knew in about 90 mins :P  Then did the other q. in the rest of the time.  It was easy..  I think I'll get a really good rank in this one !! :D  Aaahh.. it's coming to a close.  2 months passed away really quickly these last 2 weeks.. Juss when I started to make friends :(

Seriously.. I don't have many "friends" .. I've got aquaintances, bros, enemies, dudes.. even a few Bobby Darlings XD but.. very few friends.  That kinda sucks coz I don't open up AT ALL in front of strangers but this whole thing has been a learning exp. for me..  I'm starting to feel .. old now :P

Well, had a real nice Sunday for once.  Everything was cool at home and we all had a good time :)

I also convinced my Mom-Dad very efficiently as to why I need a new phone =D  Obviously I would complain when my Dad is upgrading from his useless K300i to an I-PHONE !!!!!!!!!!  X_X 

NONSENSE !!!!!
BULLSHIT !!!!!!!
GAAAHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!

=D

BULLSHIT !

WTF ?!

Anyway, either it'll be around first year of college or somewhere around that.  At least I managed to delay it by an year :P 

You see .. I should have been a lawyer.. The only reason I convinced is because I used their own words against them pretty.... awesomely =D  Aah.. bakofying crap 24/7 AND getting paid for it .. !! :P  Dream job !  Of course, practicing law is pretty tough in India, let alone studying it

So I've got my whole exams/colleges schedule nicely packed.  A series of 3 tests i.e, 2nd , 7th and 21st of June are left now.  The best part is .. the week of 13th to 20th June because by then I'd have got the results of every exam I'd have given..  U know what .. ?? 

Maybe I do regret an eeny-weeny bit that I didn't apply for that Symbiosis Univ.  I could have used the exp.. But, it would have been an utter waste of time.  Not only would it have burned up an entire week, all my imp. documents would have been deposited there and getting them out would be like creating hell .. !!  Basically, they're typical gov. dudes aka Sharma jis who won't work unless they get a sniff of money .. !!  I call em : POLITICAL MOTHER*******  or the polite version : Bunch Of Gay Monkeys XD

Probably Prateek is coming over today.  I mean, on Monday :P (It's already 1:00) 

I've also decided that I have to get in shape .. AGAIN !  I'm getting fat !!!  I don't like .... fatness !  I like ... thinness  XD  Ahhemm !!  

Anyway, I'm supposed to wake up at 7 tom. and go run around .. Hmmmm,  I WANNA GET BACK IN SHAPE !!!!!!!  

Plus, as u might have noticed by my tharkiness xD , I've got a list of celebrities I'm absolutely ... flat for ! :P  Like every other guy, I've got a list as well man !  Check it out .. !  (with pics :P )

Ana Ivanovic (Tennis Player)

Megan Fox (Actress/Social Worker)

Kim Kardashian (Actress/Reality TV Star)

Priyanka Chopra (Actress)

Minissha Lamba (Actress)

These are non-tharki perfect pics. which ... may NOT be considered offensive..  But, if u think I'm tharki(perverted) and wanna sue me, U HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO DO SO !  XD

It must be really late .. That's why I've COMPLETELY LOST MY MIND !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  XD

Well, I'm not some damn tharki whose got pics. of all of em everywhere in my bedroom/bathroom/auto  XD . I juss find these women extremely HOT n it's nothing new !!  

Though that still doesn't explain why I uploaded those pics .. ! :P

Anyway, I'd better go before I do anything more stupid :P

Signing out,

Aavis 

Mood : Funny

Listening to : T.I. & JT - Dead n Gone
Reading : Sidney Sheldon - Windmills Of The Gods  (... Weird book .. !)
Watching :  Kim Kardashian ... !!! =P~ 
Playing : Half-Life 2  (Yeaah !!)

So I finally got my results..  Well, nothing too great or to boast of but with all the problems that I'd been having at that time, I'm pretty satisfied with the results..  It's the same old story every year.  I get above average marks and then realize that I could have done MUCH BETTER and .... then follows the whole train of regrets.  Every year... same stupid story.  But this time, I can't promise myself that I'll start studying from next year.. because there won't be a next time now.  School is officially finished and it's all about colleges now.. and for that I gotta step up.  Fortunately, this realization kicked around last month and.. I've improved my maths and logical reasoning by about 80% :)  The only problem is that my GK/BA and English are still lazing in the backseat with only a 40% increase in both of em.  Only two words to describe this scenario ..... 'THIS SUCKS !!!!!!!!!' XD  

Anyway, enough about that.. 

Some other stuff I wanna talk about..

My life

(I know.. very narcisstic about me.  IT'S A PERSONAL BLOG.. WHAA DA HELL DO YAA EXPECT !?!? :D )

Hmm .. so I've been bugging my friends about my life a lot these days.  How it's dull, mundane, boring... shitty :P .. the works.  I'm really surprised that they bear all that shit .. !! :P  No seriously . Sometimes I really go off the handle and juss talk about "me me me..." (mo mo mo) (XD)  (Ahemm !)  Again, selfish of me.  But, that's what I've learnt from life..  I'm a VERY selfless guy.  I gotta start thinking more about myself ..  My own feelings.. My own happiness ..  Which, is pretty much extinct these days.  The most exciting thing that could ever happen would be my clothes blown away by the wind( which DID happen .. Damn it !!) and trying to jump to various places from my roof.. (It's FUN !)  (Yes.. I'm slightly "hila hua in the head") (XD)  But, that's juss me .. Sometimes, my other side wants to come out and have fun like it used to..  Those days are starting to feel really old now.  ....

So I like Chemsitry, Maths and English.. So what ?!  I'm not the only psycho you might have seen :P  (Read : look in your mirror) :P 

Playing this stupid app. on Facebook yesterday..  YoVille !  LOl .. !!  It's as stupid as it sounds :P  It's about your own virtual life.  (I love the whole virtual stuff.. Kinda makes my other side flare)  Soo, I was going to work (which is juss clicking one button and earning money XD) and this gal comes upto me and says ... "Your hot. Wanna be my bf ?! ;) "  Honestly !!  They're a bit psycho these days but... hell, they're psycho since a LONG time :P

.......

Obviously I said NO n ran away =P

Anyway, I feel like peeing.. I'll update later XD

Cyaa ^^

PS : Almost forgot..!  I got 76% 

Only A Few Hours Left ..... !

Mood : Sleepy

Listening to: -
Reading : Sidney Sheldon - Windmills Of The Gods  (... Weird book .. !)
Watching : -
Playing : Half-Life 2  (Awesome game !!)

Yeahh, only a few hours left until i get the much awaited and talked about result of the senior secondary exams I had given.... BASICALLY,  my class 12th results are frikkin 8 hours away ! :P

Sorry for being such an ass last time....  Well, the whole weekend thing.  I guess I lost track of time when I was at prTk's place =)

Anyway, juss the usual stuff .

Made some new friends at IMS.  Though, things are still a bit awkward and with barely 5 days left of those classes, I don't think fostering of any relationship is on the cards.. Sooo, yeah.  I lost my chance with that gal n .. probably I can salvage something outta the few days left.  My test scores are pretty volatile.  Sometimes I'd be in the top 10 n sometimes I'd be juss 2 places from the cut-off :P   

Damn it, I HATE BEING SINGLE !!!!!!!!!! X-( 

...... I don't know... Random :P

Anyway..

I really gotta start doing something about my GK n BA (Business Awareness) .  I suck at it !  Everyday I thought I'll study but then Half-Life 2 comes along .. !!  It's the best game my PC can afford to run on !  As soon as the results are out n if I get a good %, I'll probably get an awesome graphics card =D  

Punjab got kicked out of the IPL :(

Though I wasn't rooting for anyone in particular :P .. but still !  C'mon !  They deserved a place !! 

Damn, it's really hot these days.. The temp. goes upto 44 in the afternoons.  That's the problem with India.  When it's hot, it's HOT !!  N when it's cold, it's FREEZING !!  Sheeezz..

Well, it's still the same old shit.  I keep thinking about her n ....  Blaargh 

:P

IDK .. I want a rematch !!  :D  

Duude.. It's 2:15 in the morning .. !! *Yawns* 

 I'll tell yaa the rest tom. 

Pakka !  Pakka-pakka XD

Damn it , that Vasudevi !!  Shit, that's another problem.  See, I hate LDRs.  I wish everybody juss lived ... closer !   IDK, sounds really stupid 

Well anyway,

Cyaa ^^