Listening to : My CPU making random noises !
Working : Makin notes..
Watching : -
Playing : -
Eating : Chowmein !! :D
Enjoying Off : -
Wearing : Red T-Shirt combo + Sweater with Black pjs
Downloading : L4D2 (Hope it works -__- )
So yeahh..
I got nothing better to do !
Just want to leave a quick update of my "feelings" and what all I've been doing past 2-3 days ..
(Going back 2days and then coming to today)
1) Nostalgia - I was in a ... slightly nostalgic, socially unaccepted and BORED mood.. Soo, I decided to read through my earlier blog posts.. It was.. fun ^^ To see how much my thinking and typing and using the f word (decreased to zilch !) and re-living what I had been going through the past 4 months.. I mean, I had completely forgotten about it and all the other things which take me to -
2) Friends...? - Of course, I read through all the shit I had gone through Ahana & Prateek... And I realized how none of them had changed since then.. =\ =\ Which was actually very disappointing to realize. Sure, they're my "friends" and I had hoped that they would have understood by my "hints" but... I'm afraid we Indians will learn by only one method - STAND IN YO FACE AND BARK ! Which is what I plan to do with both of them... And I don't care for one frikkin' second if that may jeopardize my friendship with either of em.. Of course, I'd kick myself if something bad happened between me n Prateek but .. Bhattach.. naah, I don't give a shit about her to that extent. And we all know why =|
3) Sense Of Direction ? - Yes gaming has and will be a HUGE part of my life until I'm at least 30 or somethin' .. I have expressed my concerns to Moolie if I had better grades from 8th, my parents might have taken my gaming angle and given it more serious thoughts.. Unfortunately, I just happen to be in between that whole scenario where neither I can game peacefully for as long as I want or get good enough grades to impress em.. Yes, I hate being stuck in between in many situations of life
4) My Girlfriend...? - Possibly the most controversial and talked about topic on my blog.. Because as u all know how big of a tharki I am >.< hair ="D">
5) Shruti - (DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU'RE IN A BAD MOOD.. You'll end up doing something random or .. absurd) oK this is where I draw the line... Shruti, I've had enough.. I haven't had a conversation with you since WEEKS. Sitting frikkin' 500 kms. away I know there's something wrong with u but apparently ur not interested =\ So do one of two things - Tell me there's something wrong and I can help u with it or just tell me there's nothing convincingly enough that I don't bug u with it and I can have a rested soul.
Well..
That feels a bit better..
Seriously, my social life is the pits. Moolie is the only person I'm talking to for more than 5 minutes.. This is ... having a devastating impact on me... I didn't realize it would be this.. hard to live without talking to anyone.. Plus I don't even talk to her everyday so it gets more harder.. Besides, if I don't start talking to people, I'm gonna go loco.. I am NOT kidding =\ The only solution I have to the "Dead social life" is by playing games till 2 and then watching the regular vids. on YouTube. Yes, I play Left 4 Dead 2.. Which, isn't exactly working at it's best but it's good enough..
So I've realized 3 things that I need -
1) People to talk to
2) Better prioritization of my studies and gaming, and
3) A girlfriend ! (Yeahh like, since 1 year =\ )
Damn It ...
Cyaa
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