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Another quick update.

My 6th New Year with me spending time without my family.

Been as LOVELY as the last 5

I don't even feel like crying now.. It just seems useless.

Everything does.

Really, things won't change, no matter which method I apply.

Old or new.

And unfortunately it's gonna stay this way for a very long time.

"Wishing you a Merry New Year 2010 ^^ "

My arse

The new year starts and I've realized I only have one best friend.

Things are just falling apart in every department of life..

How long will I keep blaming people, things.. Even my own self ??

....

We're leaving tomorrow most probably by lunch. Or on Saturday

It's going to be the same bullcrap back home.

I really don't see the point in all this.. Even a "family break" just worsens things...

My New Years Resolution.... My promise to God...

First Sunday of the year.

I need to think about it..

As of now,

I'll miles away from people I want to be with and things I want to do.

The miles seem really long...

It all... seems so far away... away near the horizon.

Life awaits a new set of challenges.

New fake relationships.

New plastic friends.

New problems.

New Year

But as of now, I'm on my bed, with plastic tears and smiles and going to sleep like every other night for the past 5 special nights -

Sad, broke and lonely.

Bye